I am at home, alone for all intents and purposes – Dad and Mama are napping, and I’m at “our house” on the computer. Bill and Dannye Reigh had a Bridal shoot today. Then Dannye will be going to the bride’s shower and bachelorette party for more pictures, but Bill should be home in an hour or so.
I’m enjoying these quiet moments right now. I do not naturally enjoy my own company – I much prefer one or more, or many more, people around me almost all the time. But the quiet seems nice to me right now. There’s not even a TV or radio on! Those of you that know me very well are probably wondering if something is wrong with me!!
This morning I had a hard time facing the duties of my day. I really wanted to stay in bed, sleep late, read or watch a movie, blog or surf on the computer – you know, “me time”. Everyone tells us we need “me time”. I have learned, however, that if I forego “me time”, whether by my choice or by necessity, my faithful Heavenly Father often rewards me with it! Just like today. I went ahead and got up, as I could hear Daddy puttering around in the kitchen. I fixed breakfast for he and I, and when we finished we listened to some Big Band music for awhile. Mama finally got up and after some help from me got her clothes on, took her pills, ate her yogurt and orange juice, then went back to lay down on her bed. Soon after that, Daddy turned off the music and said he was going to rest awhile. So I have had about 2 hours of “me time” that I didn’t expect, and didn’t have to carve out for myself! It’s been great!
Mama seems to be slipping more and more. She never knows where she is now. She just accepts that she is at home, only because we tell her it is so. She asks regularly, “When are we going home?” or “Where am I going to sleep tonight?”. This morning she asked whose house we were at, and when I told her it was her house she looked somewhat surprised, then resigned that even though she couldn’t make it true in her mind, she knows we wouldn’t lie to her. How sad that must be for her!! And it’s breaking my Daddy’s heart! Mama doesn’t seem upset – just confused. Daddy is the one who is upset, always wanting to know what has set her off, or what we can do to help her. It’s been so hard for him.
We have doctors appointments for both of them Monday. We don’t know if there is truly a need to have Mama seen, but hate to ignore each digression if there might be anything they can do for her. And Daddy still has his “pain in the butt,” even after a round of steroids. I know they are going to send him to another doctor, meaning more time before he can get this taken care of, but we want to take all the right steps. Having them both out of the house will also give us an opportunity to exterminate, since the bugs are beginning to wander in looking for water due to our Texas drought. Lovely thought, isn’t it?!
Better go – Daddy just came looking for a Popsicle and a ballgame on TV. I’m going to go sit with him for awhile before Bill and I go out tonight. Karla and the kids are coming to sit with Dad and Mama while we’re gone, then Missy is going to spend the night with me and go to church with us tomorrow! That will be fun!
Y’all have a super blessed weekend!
God bless your day!