There are times that if you are not an Andy Griffith buff, you will have no idea why I say some of the things I say. My title is an example…
I woke up this morning so excited about my day: after my four hours at work, Bill and I were going to meet with a wedding client. Going to meet with the client sounded like fun for me, simply because I’ve had to be out of the loop for awhile in our business. Getting to spend the afternoon with Bill sounded even better!!
My workday ended up being an easy one – my boss left after a couple of hours to go play golf, so I was able to quickly finish up my work and get prepared for the meeting. I had hoped to meet Bill at Firestone so I could leave the van for an oil change. We saw early on that this was not going to happen. By the time I was packing up to leave the office, my fun day began to unravel! Bill was totally bogged down with work at his “real” job, and was going to have to postpone the meeting until after 4. That meant I couldn’t go, since I had to be home with the folks by 5 so Jeanne can go by her MIL’s home to give her an insulin shot, then get home around the time her hubby does.
These kinds of things happen real often in Bill’s job – he really never knows what will get thrown into the mix of his day. I’ve had to make many adjustments during his 13 years at this job, so it should have been old hat!
I don’t know why, but this time it wasn’t as simple as that for me. I was absolutely crushed! I hadn’t realized how much I was looking forward to this little jaunt out of my restrictive days. I had so much fun preparing the paperwork for this little couple, designing it just so, printing it so nicely, packaging the samples so neatly. It just couldn’t happen this way!
I did make the adjustment before too long, but I sure had to do some praying to get there! I’ll admit that even now my heart aches a little as I wait for Bill to get home from the meeting. I have determined to be especially kind and gentle toward Mama and Daddy tonight. I’ve learned that my heart nearly always follows my actions, and the love shown by my actions will very quickly be overflowing out of my heart. Some may think that is backwards, perhaps even hypocritical, but I believe very strongly that it is Scriptural. (2 Kings 4 is one example)
Disappointment can be a crippling emotion if we let it. In the passage referred to above, the Shunammite woman lost her only child – the child promised and given her by God after years of barrenness. When the child died, rather than tell her husband her grief, she told him “All is well” and went to get Elisha. When Elisha sent Gehazi to inquire ‘Is all well with you? Is all well with your husband? Is all well with the child?’ She replied, “All is well.”
All was not well. Not in the world’s eyes. Her child was dead. But this amazing lady had faith in her Lord, that in God’s plan, all was indeed well.
All is not well in my life, either (again, according to the world’s view). My life has been severely interrupted so that rather than running around with my husband and daughter at the drop of a hat, or flying/driving to see my far away children and grandchildren from time to time, I am helping my mother go to the bathroom, getting up 2 or 3 times in the night to comfort Mama when she feels lost and alone, staying home during events that I would normally attend were it not for my parent’s needs.
If I take the time to look at my life through my Heavenly Father’s eyes, however, ALL IS WELL. Perhaps I don’t understand the plan. Perhaps I can’t see any good reason for all I have “lost” during this time. I could insert here all the good I DO see in helping my parents, because there is much good. But what if I didn’t see any good? Does that mean there is no good?
The thing is that ALL IS WELL because God Himself is good. By His grace, I have faith (sometimes moment by moment, sometimes a little delayed ) that God is indeed working all of my life, my circumstances, heaven, and earth, whatever touches me, for good. HIS GOOD. MY GOOD.
The biggest part of that “good” is that I am being transformed into the image of my Lord Jesus Christ. I truly, truly take joy in that. Jesus, the One who loves me even though He knows my evil thoughts and deeds; the One who loves others in that same way, no matter how they treat Him; the One who always does the right thing, says the right thing, thinks the right thing. I am being conformed into HIS image! Again, what JOY!
And now, having written these words, my heart is catching up with my words and my actions. I needed this reminder. God is so good to lead me from whining to accepting to embracing His plan for my day.
Bill is now home. The meeting went very well. I am so thankful, because Bill hadn’t been feeling well today and was a little stressed as he left the house earlier. The couple made some decisions on their package, and seemed pleased with what we are offering. ALL IS WELL!
Mama is in bed, Daddy is back in his room, and Bill is in our room, probably asleep with his laptop in his lap. Oh, and the Astros won tonight! I’d better go get some sleep myself!
God bless your day!