Today, Jeanne and I were finally able to be here at the house at the same time and actually get some things accomplished. I was off work, so we made the plan and it happened! We worked in the living room – my folks have stuff stuck in every nook, cranny, drawer and cabinet in the house – and Jeanne and I went through it all! Bill had suggested we put up tables and set out everything we need others to go through and/or will end up in the estate/garage sale. So we did, and now the tables are laden with books, collectibles, CDs/cassettes, and more. There is still room for more, and we know we will need many more places to display the stuff we will go through!
I only had a bit of trouble with my emotions, and the main reason for that, I think, was having to decide what to do with the many, many pictures Mama & Daddy have. It’s horrible to think, “I don’t need/want that” when you know how much it meant to your parents! And some of these things mean a lot to us, but we don’t know what in the world we would do with them! Jeanne said she’d better start now getting rid of stuff so her kids don’t have to deal with what we are dealing with!
Since my last blog, I have been working up to being able to deal with this aspect of my parents’ death. I didn’t know how much I dreaded it. All I knew was that there was always something else to do, some other place to be. One of the biggest things that helped was when Jeanne turned the corner in her grieving process. It lifted my spirits immeasurably! Now we are able to lift one another up when one or the other of us are down. It’s really good!
I know there are other things to write about, but I’m still not in my writing groove. My thoughts are somewhat disconnected, and I can’t get them to flow well! I am truly doing okay – just feeling kind of unsure of myself.
Tonight I am cooking a real meal for Bill and myself, the first time since I don’t remember when! We’ve had all kinds of food around, but always brought by someone else. Tonight, I am grilling pork chops, with buttered new potatoes and green beans. And I’m starving!!
I am praying that my heart can get prepared for Resurrection Sunday this weekend. I am having a bit of trouble focusing! Perhaps you can pray with me? This song has been on my heart so much lately – I may have even included it last time I wrote – but the Lord has used it to minister to me in a great way:
God bless your day, and bless this weekend that reminds us of the hope we have in our Lord Jesus Christ!