This evening, I’ve been reflecting on my day. I have the grandkids for a couple of days, which is my joy. They came Tuesday, which meant they woke up here this morning. Which also means the day begins rather early, although for Titus, we got a late start – he didn’t wake me up until almost 7:30!
I am NOT a morning person. At least my nature is not normally to be excited to begin a day early, although for the past several years I CAN NOT sleep in like I used to. But I dream about sleeping in, still. It kinda goes back to my young married days when, on days I was home alone, I dreaded getting out of bed. I never have enjoyed my own company, unlike my Mama, who preferred her own company to most people’s that she knew! And I always feared that if I got up, first the aloneness would begin, and although I had plenty to do around my house – PLENTY – I just knew I’d finish before the alone time ended, and then I’d be stuck again with my own company. So I slept a lot on those alone days. And things didn’t get done, and my home was gross, and my marriage was less than happy (although I am married to the most understanding, loving man on this earth) and I was horribly unhappy.
When babies came, I got better. As they got older and became even better company, I got even better. There were even tiny bits of time that I wanted a minute alone; but only a minute!! My housekeeping got better because I had someone to keep me company while doing it, then had 3 GREAT helpers! And I didn’t have to fear being alone, because we home educated; thus we were together most of the time for 20+ years!
Having children was so healing for my psyche. I even liked myself better during those years. I was able to do things alone sometimes, and enjoy it. I was pretty confident, as well. It was good, those years of parenting!
After caring for Mama and Daddy, I found myself losing confidence, and as I’ve mentioned before, in a somewhat depressed state. I sure wasn’t getting anything done! So my kids (Bo and Em, specifically) began helping with some health issues, namely my weight and my sedentary lifestyle, while at the same time needing me to help out with their kids while they worked on their health and wellness business.
I’m saying all this to finally get around to saying that I think both these things – dealing with my health issues, and keeping my grandkids a couple of days each week – have worked in tandem to get me back on track! Today was a perfect example of the good that is happening in my life lately! I have felt better both physically and mentally as the summer has worn on, and I tell Bo and Em all the time that I wish I didn’t sound so much like a commercial for their company (Advocare) because people begin to shy away from you when you do that! But I do feel better, actually GOOD, and I do credit the regimen Emily has me on for most of it.
As for the rest of why I feel good, getting up and going after these babies, not to mention that they simply give me a wonderful reason to exist, really does wonders for this Nonnie!
So today, I had a great day. The grands were a big part of that, and the products were another big part of it, and the choice to get up and DO STUFF was a big part of it. I’m just grateful for these kinds of days, and more grateful that they are coming more and more often!
God bless your day!