Nearer, My God to Thee

Daddy is now failing rapidly. It is difficult to see. He goes from having hallucinations and being completely unaware of his surroundings, to deep, deep sleep, to calling for me or Jeanne by name to do this or that for him.

Last night was the most difficult for me thus far.  Up until yesterday, when Daddy was hallucinating he knew it, or at least knew the difference between the real and the unreal.  As the day wore on yesterday he moved deeper into the dream world and didn’t even know we were in the room.  He was so agitated, almost angry at times, which is so unlike Daddy.  I have seen him angry before, but because he HATES confrontation, he is most often the Peacemaker, not the Strifemaker! 

Nathanael and Emily made remarkable time getting here, and Daddy was able to talk to Bo and Em a bit, and make a fuss over the babies.  I am so grateful for that.  Nathanael has been an amazing help to Jeanne and me since his arrival, since Daddy is now bed-bound.  I had been afraid Bo would withdraw the moment he saw how bad Daddy is, but he has truly been “all here” for us.  Pamela and Will are arriving tonight, but I’m afraid Daddy won’t know it.  My poor Tater will be heartbroken, but she is being so brave. 

The nurse indicated Dad’s homegoing is very near. She will be in later to check on us.

Please pray for us.  Pray that we will endure this loss with greater faith than we’ve ever experienced.  Pray for my older sisters as they can’t be right here every moment – I know their hearts are breaking and they often feel alone being so far away.  Thank you all so much, my Xanga family.

God bless your day!